不是没有话题。。

其实我们的关系是很好，就是缺乏关心。。

就是因为工作，时间不宜， 所以我们很少说话。。
我很想对你说很多话，但是，我又怕你说我幼稚，所以就想了几遍才问，才说。。

我知道你很累因为你这几个月根本没有给自己休息。。
去了吉隆坡后，你就忙着篮球比赛， 然后，朋友的喜酒， 跑槟威大桥， 又吉隆坡， 又朋友的喜酒。。。
我看到你这样，你以为我很好受吗?
你的生活里面没有休息。。

你在吉隆坡 AIA Kick Off 时，想sms问候你，你却说“不知道要回复什么”。。
我真的感到很伤心。。
我以为我的关心让你觉得厌倦。。
我真的不懂要怎样才算好。。




** 我有我的不满却不能告诉你 **

我们不是没有话题。。而是，当我问的问题，你的答案却是“不知道”。

当我问你关于你的工作时，你却告诉我不要问你工作的事。。（你有说过）

当我不喜欢你和Celine 那么好时，我却不能告诉你，只好一个人安静的在上网，发泄自己的不满。。因为你说过（你在外面会遇到很多女生的客人）我知道你对他只是朋友，但是，女生总是会吃醋。。

我知道我并不是一个好女朋友，但是我真的很努力的去做好。。
我不希望离开你，我的希望是和你在一起。。
我只是很难说出口我的不满，因为我知道我会哭。。
我也从来没有对别人认真的说出我真正的感受。。
就算家人也从来没有说过。。

我很想了解你，但是我真的很不想那个答案是 - 不知道
你说的话，我都有记在脑里。。
我希望你能知道最近的我就是有意见。。。。

也许，我的表达能力不是很好。。
尤其是说话方式。。也有可能让你感觉到我不尊重你，对你马马虎虎， 对不起！
我就是不会在语言里表达我自己。。
你可以让我知道，我会去改散。。
但是，我就是那么容易流泪。。

这个是我第一次拍拖那么久的一次，我对这段感情很认真。。
我不会那么容易放弃，因为我知道了解一个人不是一两天的事， 而是相处方式里了解对方。。

我会慢慢踏入你的世界里了解你，但我也希望你能踏入我的世界了解我。。

我会永远爱你。。

我们...

感觉上...
沟通越来越难
话题越来越少
关系越来越差
人越来越累
怎么办?

Lazy Sunday !

It's Sunday / 12 December 2010

It's quite a long time I do not update my blog.
Well, Busy life..
Weekdays is tired and weekend as well..

Again...raining day!
Hugging Ginger and walk around in the house.
Lazy to go out even is shopping mall...
My back is pain..too tired i think.

He, no news from Him since Morning..
=(
17 December is my Team annual dinner.
not sure what I should wear as the theme is just allowed us to wear black, white, red or green. (just like the christmas tree).

I am lazy to drive to there, can someone fetch me to there ?
Lack of money all the time.


Seems like Money does causing the problems..
I hate it.

Quiet Saturday!!

18 September 2010

My parents thought today he will come to find me and prepare a lot of food even i told them he will not come. but they insist to do so many food..

Parents keep on asking why he is not coming and keep on asking about his things..
I just said don't know.
Yeah! this is the answer i can answer for now.

I am very tired due to not sleep well for 2 days and try to have some rest on the evening, but, i really can't sleep and just drop a few tears only able to sleep..

He just look like do not care me at all..
a whole day just send a "I MISS YOU" message only..
No calls, no message anymore..

I feel very depress...
very very sad but can't tell anyone bout this...
just try my best to be strong but still will cry alone at night before sleep..
i am just so fail...

failure me~

I Need More Jacket !!!

Friday Morning , 17 September 2010

When Becky wants to depart from her house to office, she realizes her car tires lost included the rims as well.

I'm not sleeping well and when she called me is about 5.30am and she ask me to fetch her to work. When i depart to her house, is about 6.30am and we both are late to work.

After a while, the rain falls..it's very heavy and i'm freezing over there. My jacket just like a piece of paper, cant get me warm but makes me more freezing.
I hate that.
I have to buy a cup of hot chocolate to keep myself warm.

Today I am very quiet and even my colleague all concern about me.
I just keep on doing my work and listening song.

4pm is reached and I just packed my things and go home. While on the way back, Becky forget to bring her wallet, and I have to get back to office to get the wallet.

She is so careless...
When I reached home and had my dinner, i started to sleep and 6.30am wake up.

Washed toilet and car as well as bath.
Feeling good ~ ^^

Sleep like PIG!

3 September 2010 - A TERRIBLE RAIN

At my dear's house and woke up at 6.15am.
The rain starts...

when i depart from his house, everything looks fine but the terrible rains starts when I almost reach office..
everyone get their umbrella ready before reach the shade, include me too..

When I open my door and take out my umbrella, the wind and rain getting strong and heavier...after that, my umbrella spoil before i reach the shade and i need to run to the shade..

everyone laugh at me since my umbrella is broken, my jacket, jeans, shirt, inner wear and my bag are wet..
additionally, the office air condition is still remain the same -- COLD

I am freezing at there and I cannot concentrate to work..
My colleague saw me and she borrow me her jacket and i cover it like zombie..
keep on walking here and there to keep myself warm..
the rain starts stop after 730am...

This was a joke for me...
After that, PHUA CHU KANG came to our DELL for sales event. So bad, I do not have a chance to see it as we do not believe that was the real PHUA CHU KANG..haha..

ANYWAY, was very bad mood for FRIDAY..
WET and FREEZING like hell in DELL..

Shit..
I should take thicker jacket and extra shirts put at office next time..

Wow

It's been a short while i have not update my blog..

It's not because of busy..
but tired...

Today is second of August and I just passed my 22nd Birthday..
And one more thing was..
I get my own first salary..

not satisfied because the OT claims haven't give me yet...

Anyway, For ah boy..

we didn't argue for a long time already...
so good...

time to sleep...
talk more next time !

June 19, My Convocation

Last Saturday was my convocation for Campbell University Bachelor of Degree.

Friday
Early in the morning, we depart from my house to Ipoh to have our breakfast with my parents and we reach KL around 2pm. After we checked in the Smile Hotel, we have some rest before depart to have our dinner at avenue K.

Guess what.
we had a special meal at avenue K. It's Ah Yat Abalone Forum. My family members, ah fen and my dear enjoy it a lot even we all are very tired.
I love the meal so much (especially the abalone) yummy~~
After that, when we come back from town, it's around 11pm..everyone is tired and have a good rest.

Saturday
It's my Convo..woke up at 645am and go to college at 730. seems like everyone late for the convocation...enjoy it a lot but still tired. After the convocation, we straight back to Ipoh. It was exhausted even my dear cannot tahan..
But I am very appreciate what my dear did in this trip was helping me a lot especially in driving.
At night, my dear and I watch football at grandma house and this is the first time my dear met my grandma and grandpa ^^

Sunday
We had a very sweet sleep until sunday morning. Had our breakfast and went to visit new houses..nice ^^ after that, we back to penang.

This trip is tired but I do enjoy it a lot. Love it..
Especially with my dear..muacks..
thank you, my dear !!

Happy Anniversary !!

Dear, Happy Anniversary !

I thought last weekend can celebrate our anniversary but it's ended up some family matters. Sigh..

I feel glad that you came to my house yesterday and dinner with me ^^
But I prefer to go out with you for a day and more..

Anyway, today is Monday and you need to work hard in your work.
Hope you can work harder and I can start work on time..
Hope we can work hard for our future..

Dear, I wish to be with you happily and face any problems with you..
I Love You..
Muacks..

New Features, Blogspot!!

New features for blogspot..

I like the new features in blogspot.It's like the friendster blog last time that enable everyone to personalize their own blog.
I love it so much but overall, it's still needs some improvement.

Today is the first day of FIFA World Cup..
I went to MCD with 5 friends and we all sit at there chat while watching the match.
South Africa versus Mexico..
Nice match that ended with 1-1 result.

There are few match on going now..but i do not have any energy to watch it anymore.

I'm so happy because our anniversary coming soon..^^
so excited !!
haha..

♥♥ It's June ♥♥

First Week of June

Friday June 4, Saturday is Agong Birthday, so, my dear do not have work on Friday..
That night, It's Yee Sin's Wedding at SP..
We went there and leave early as we need to go Thye Soon's house for preparation and discussion.
12am something we went back home.

Saturday June 5, today is Thye Soon's Wedding. We wake up at 4am and depart at 630am due to Ah Yew can't wake up. haha..
Then we went to Thye Soon house gathering and ready to depart to Ipoh.
When we reach there, it's about 9am, then we went to st. Michael church to see their wedding. Nice ~~
After that, we had our lunch at church and when we reach home it's about 3pm.
730pm we reach the restaurant and we had great fun at there.
that night, they all keep on play games til dun wan sleep..

Sunday June 6, Dear, Chee Tat and Kok Thye went to have dim sum with his friends..
after that, we went to sunshine market to have our lunch, after that, we went to Balik Pulau to get our durians and we had it in dear's house, after that, we get some coconut water after durians..Love it !!

What a great weekend we have been through..
Tired but satisfied..



Our Memories on Thye Soon's Wedding Day..
What a nice gathering ...^^

Last Weekend on May~

Hooray..
Wesak Day on Friday..
I went to temple with parents to have a simple pray for health and happy family.
Then,my dear dear come to fetch me oh..
At the temple, we saw dear dear's 5th uncle. So lucky..^^
After that, we went to Gurney to have a walk and eat a little bit at food and tea.
Then we went back to home to have a rest.
I was over tired as Thursday night I have to fetch sis back from KL.
Then, we went to eat fried rice opposite tesco extra near my dear's house.
We went to queensbay to walk around and buy yakult as my stomach not feeling well.

Saturday
This is the last weekend of may.
As usual, we sleep like pig til 10am..haha. Then we went to have our brunch but forget at where lu~eat Mcd la... expensive Mcd.. order big set n get the Glass eh... then, we back home to rest a while and watch movie together at home. After that, we went to Ipoh with wen yew for thye soon's wife's wedding dinner. ^^
Suddenly went to dinner out of preparation. A bit weird actually.
Then, we reach home and continue our movie til 1am.
Then, we rest.

Sunday
Haha..again..10am wake up.
Dear dear sleep like pig...
then we went to genting eat many foods..
(dear, this time i din ask u order so many oh..)
after that, we back home to rest plus online.
then, we slept.
We plan to wash car after a rest but then the car suddenly clean jor..
like magic (Ding!)
so, we just went to queensbay to buy bacon and ham for dear dear's breakfast.
Hope he like it.
He always complain poor.. very hard 2 feed 2 ppl with low salary la..
now, breakfast also prepare for him le..tq my dear.. feel so warm n sweet..
just see he wan to make breakfast for his own only oo..
Dear, after you eat, let me know nice or not oh..its nice o...
After that, we had our dinner with Fai and his friend (Kehvin). Each of us rm10 oh..
a bit expensive. (cheaper than Mcd v eat la..)
Then, went to Wednesday Shop to buy the skirt i waited for so long.
Finally I bought it. The dress is nice and the belt as well but so bad i am so skinny.
Sigh..
How to become fat i also duno~
Anyway, I think the skirt is worth as this style is always famous all the time.
At night, we get our chocolate from Langkawi..
Thanks to Xiao Ling oh.
She brings a lot of chocolate come back..
So happy to see those chocolate..
Dear dear's fridge now full of chocolate..hope he will like it and don't finish it at one time..

now is 12.10am lu..
I need to sleep soon..
Good Night My Dear..
I had a happy weekend with my dear.
Thank You Dear...
I hope you are happy too ^^
im happy o... muackss

yummy...

while i m emailing US colleague on some issues, i get a miss call that makes me excited..
its from my dear...
she bring something for me..
when i go down, so happy to see her and a bacon burger for me..
but she going to fetch her friend home.
so, just can say good bye, but my heart is so warm..
its from my dear...
so happy....
this is how the lovely dear made burger looks like"-->


its so delicious..
i like it...
1 is not enough for me..
see... bacons, vege and chili source..



yum yum...
thank you my daer...
hope can eat again next time... :P

A.R.G.U.E

Last weekend my dear and I went to KL for Sam's house warming at Desa Petaling.
It was a tired trip but I feel happy cuz my dear bring me go wherever he go..

Saturday we went to Sam's house warming and we went back aunty house to rest for a while. At night, my sis bring us to the bambu bali to have bali style meal. the meal at there are delicious and big set so we just order 3 set and 4 of us share.

Then, sis's bf bring us go i-city to see the scenery of light. It was so small place and yet beautiful. Many people at there snapping photo with friends and family and having fun at there.

But such place just went for only once due to the traffic jam and the location is far than city area.

That day was so tired, my dear fall asleep while on the way back from i-city. The next day we went to 1 utama to buy present for his friend. Then, we have our tea time at there and at night we went to meet ai shen and kok thye them.

At night, dear have to fetch his friend back penang and that day was raining day and the road really hard to see. Luckily there is no accident and I still able to see the road.

So sorry dear for driving so fast oh..cuz i know we all tired d..just hope we can rest early at home.

On monday, I feel very "kek hei" due to dear dear's attitude that don like to listen ppl's idea and others. "Kek" til I cry. I feel why i am so stupid for keep on give idea to him that he didnt listen it..feel so stupid. sigh..

but luckily both of us oso give each other some space to improve and then the next day we not argue anymore..
^^

we keep on learning to understand each other..
hehe..
so nice ^^

Weekend~

This Weekend I just spent a night at ah boy's house.
My parents wanted to go Ipoh so thursday evening we depart to Ipoh.
We had our dinner at "tong sui kai" eating beef noodle. then we heading back to grandma house.
Grandma house got 2 little puppy and both of them very "tam jiak"..haha..
I just love to play with them while they are not biting me..
after that, saturday morning we back to penang and I went to bf house.

Help bf clean the house and then bf bring me go balik pulau eat laksa then we go to eat lok lok at pulau tikus at night.So nice to have nice day with my dear.
Very happy....

It's Labor Day~

The day before labor day..30 April 2010 (friday)

We went to watch movie (IP MAN 2) with a bunch of people at Queensbay Mall, Penang. The movie is nice but the people that joining not that nice than I thought. Anyway, I just focus more on watching the movie and with my love one only..
After the movie, we are exhausted as I quite late sleep on the day before movie, so, we get back home without attend their gathering at some coffee shop or restaurant.

1st May 2010 (Saturday)
Where have we been ?? hmm...
haha..Oh..I remembered...
We went to eat Hakka Mee and we get back home to clean my dear's room and computer room as well. It's quite fun although it's sweat a lot. Dear went to peer and chop off the cocunut and then we took it to plant at 2pm..just imagine the sunlight will burn us..haha..
After that, we went to sunshine square and eat MCD Spicy Chicken McDeluxe Double..woot* great..
Then, I went to dinner with parents at paya terubong while my dear stay at home.
Our labor day spend over just for this..
nothing special happened..but, ** warm in heart **

2nd May 2010 (Sunday)
It's Sunday..My dear...
We went for Chicken rice at paya terubong and then we back to home again..
Then, We went to Shirley's birthday celebration at Queensbay Mall, Penang around 3 to 7pm..then, we went to WEDNESDAY buy a tube and go for dinner at sg.pinang food court..nice food anyway..haha..
that night was so warm cuz my dear hugging me when sleeping..I like this so much !! Feel so safe~
Thanks My Dear..

3rd May 2010 (Monday)
Holla...
I'm still at my dear's house. Yeah !!
He get extra one day holiday as Labor Day falls on Saturday and his company carry forward one day off on Monday. Great ..
I sleep like Pig cuz yesterday something happened at midnight...
After I get ready, it's already 1130am and we went to Queensbay Mall for Iron Man 2.
We get our breakfast in subway italian B.M.T.
In Love with Subway's Sandwich..
after the movie, my dear have to repair his car and then we went to new world park for our tea time plus dinner..
after that, we went back to take the car from the service center and we back home for a short rest..at 8pm, my dear sent me home and now he is sleeping while i'm typing this blog to remember our days ...

Nice day although have some angry and happy moments in between...
Love It..
Muacks..

Hope my dear have a great rest and Wish him work happily..
I Love You !!

想你

last week is the week that I can revision well for my resit paper..
Advanced Network Communication (CCNA)..
Finally I do the short notes that almost completed and I feel happy cuz I finally understand all of it.
The sad thing was I need to leave KL on sunday morning and I really miss my dear so much when I'm at KL.

But, after the exam, I feel relax and I rush back to Penang after that.
The next day, Tuesday is the happy day for me..
cuz i can see my dear dear..
I cant tell how much I miss him and I just can keep that in my heart.
hmm..
I wish he knows I miss him so much...

烂借口=>不习惯..

我不习惯..
.
.
.
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我也不习惯人家把我的关心以'不习惯'答复我..
算啦..反正我也不习惯关心别人...




ps:
谢谢老婆帮我挤牙膏哦...周末过得好幸福快乐耶...唯独'不习惯'...

NooB

Sigh..
The more I study, the more I feel I got nothing.
At Diploma, I can understand everything easily but why comes to degree just like a shit even I put a lot of efforts at there.When I flashback my advanced diploma life, it's like nothing..nothing at all..
I got no knowledge about everything..
the motivation is lost after diploma...
Why?
I feel stress and sad but I can't spread it out like diploma..
I do not know how to spread it out and I lost myself..
I really lost myself..
Where is the happy julie?
where is the crazy julie where at can study at morning and crazy with friends at night?
The motivation is really lost..

I just don't know why..

I already tried my best but I can't get the result I want..
I tried to understand but end up with nothing..
why?

I just feel like want to bang myself on the wall and dead..
I'm lost !!

T.T

I ♥ Weekend !

♥ 26 - 28 March 2010 ♥

题目：我最爱周末又来临了。。
原因：可以陪我的老公
重要性（max = 5）：♥♥♥♥♥

星期五的早上，一起床就觉得很开心
想到今晚我最爱的老公来载我出去就很开心。。
今天就和妈妈一起做了些糕点打算做给爷爷吃，和给老公吃。。
怎么知道，老公到我家后，我们就出门了。。
他连试吃也没有。。
我们就这样去了 “火锅之家” 吃晚餐了。。
看他肚子饿，我也有点心疼。。就快快把虾破壳就煮。。
希望他喜欢。。
我在那边就像阿四~
还好我终算吃到一点东西。。
回到家后，都很迟了。。
我们洗澡后，就在房间休息了。。

星期六早上， 今天我有interview，原本很想去讨 .NET programmer 的工，但是，听到老公说他们比较喜欢有经验的，就放弃了。。到了那边，发现朋友们都讨同样的工，对自己没有信心，只好讨份另类的工。。
回来之后，真的有点后悔的，但是，事情都发生了。。也没什么好后悔。。只好靠命运。。
之后我们就去吃mcd 然后就去queensbay 走走咯。。
回到家，我们就把房间弄成小戏院，看‘大兵小将’。。
看完了，我们就睡觉了。。
快快乐乐的时间过得真快。。

那么快就到了星期日。。
今天我们就坐摩托到air itam 去清明。。
每条路都在堵车。。
还好老公聪明，选择摩托。。虽然晒了一点，危险了一点，但是，我还蛮享受的。。
回到家后，我们就快快把衣服换掉。。就继续我们的小戏院，看 “锦衣卫”。
好喜欢在看戏时甜蜜了起来的感觉。。很舒服。。
之后我们就去了penang times square和 gurney plaza 逛街。。
我们看了How To Train Your Dragon 后，就去吃晚餐。。
我好喜欢这样的周末。。

♥ 老公，你喜欢吗？ ♥

Pain~

Today is the second day of stomach pain..
this is because of the monthly blood donation that I need to go through..
Yesterday I even sweat on my bed and cover blanket during 3-4pm..
hmm...but after that, i feel much more better after mum apply some oil on my stomach..it keeps me warm and feel better a lot..
but i do hope my dear's hand can put on my stomach..his hand is very warm and I like it a lot..

This pain not only makes me suffer and yet, i'm dizzy. I can't even stand straight yesterday and I realized I do not enough blood..Can someone donate it for me ????? haha..

anyway, I really hope i can cope this pain as soon as possible and I hope I can finish the pain after 3days..argh..i'm very suffer everyday~

Hard to Breath

Today when I woke up, the first thing i do was turn on my computer and check about the bill for resit.
The bill is out but the only thing was need to pay at bursary.
After done that, I've made amendment for the documentation and pass to my friend so that he can help me to submit to lecturer.
I feel so hard to breath and both of my legs is pain, stomachache and head pain. Sigh..
Maybe I'm lack of exercise or anything..i just feel i want to have a rest but what type of rest that suits me? i'm not sure.

I thought i will feel relief after submit the documentation but it doesn't. I have to start study my CCNA for resit.
I've done with 1 chapter but there are some chapters to go some more..
I hope I can done it.

Yesterday I'm not angry to my dear but I just do not know that is my wrong or his wrong. So, remain silent and let myself stop talking and think is the best way.

When I ask my dear about attending the talk from dad, he answered :he refused to go unless i go to his AIA talk.
What is the meaning behind was, I don't want so fast to leave him if i attend the talk with parents..but he do not think of this way.
After heard he said about the comparing AIA talk and my dad's GLOPEC oil talk..
I felt he is still mind in I refused to go his AIA talk last time.
That time I really do not have transport to go..sigh..

Maybe I should rush to there on that time no matter using what transport..
I'm so wrong.

I'm always so failure..I tried to do my best but it seems just getting worse and go to the worst.

I'm so bad~ T.T

I hate myself a lot..
I'm not deserved to be treated so good...
Really very hate myself.
T.T

流泪

今天一早起床后，就和家人在一起吃早餐。。
爸爸就说了一个他从新闻听回来的真实的故事。。

这个故事发生在外国。
这个故事说有个爸爸他拥有一个3岁的孩子。
当时，爸爸因为赚到钱，就买了一辆昂贵漂亮的车。。
爸爸把车放好后，孩子就带着好奇心与开心去看看那辆车。。
爸爸当时没有注意小孩的一举一动。。爸爸也很疼爱刚买的车。。
由于孩子的好奇心很强，他走到车头，看到反射的他，就在车头画画。。
当爸爸看到后，很生气三岁小孩的行动就打他，然后就用wires把他的双手绑紧起来并且把他捆在停车位里。

过后，两个小时后，爸爸的气消了。。才想到孩子的存在。。
爸爸才记得孩子在停车位里。
当爸爸看到小孩时，小孩双手发黑。。
（由于wires阻碍人类血液循环，小孩的手就救不了，必须切掉）
过了这件事后，爸爸就把车子拿去修理，当他驾回来的车子就像新的一样。。
小孩就问爸爸 ：
小孩：爸爸， 你把车子修理像新的一样。。那么，你几时要把我的手还给我？
爸爸听了之后，很后悔之前的错误，但是，后悔了也救不回他心爱孩子的手。。
爸爸过意不去就自杀了。。

听了爸爸说了这个故事，我就控制不了自己的情绪，流泪了。。
流泪也因为可怜那个小孩。。也可怜我的过去也有一点像那个小孩。。
以前，由于爸爸早出晚归，所以看到爸爸回来的时候是特别开心的。。
就会跑去迎接爸爸，也很想得到爸爸的抱抱。。
可是，到最后，我都得不到。。
虽然那时不会伤心和失望，但是那个已经变成一种预料到的成绩。。
小时候的我还是一样，爸爸放工就迎接他。。

最动人的是，爸爸告诉我，他听到那个故事也很后悔当初为什么没有抱抱我们。。
所以他现在很努力为我们着想。。

我也明白为什么我那么喜欢抱抱了。。
虽然一个抱抱对普通人来说不是很重要。。
但是，对我来说：抱抱是一种对我的关怀与疼爱。。

宝贝，上次你问我为什么我喜欢抱抱，我却不会回答你。。
现在我懂了。。
我希望你随时能抱抱我一下。。
get my meaning?

=) Happy Weekend 7 March 2010

I just reached home no longer ago..
Where did I go?
I'm overnight at my dear's house.
This weekend I feel very happy. Why I said so ?
Friday night, my dear came to my house and we have our discussion over there.
Before the talk, i'm felt doubt with his planning about our future and I am worried him a lot..
But, after listen what he told me, it's quite touching and I only knew he did plan for our future and have a plan. This makes me feel relief a lot.

Saturday Morning..
Early in the morning, my dear came to find me. HAHA..I feel so happy..very very happy because he can wake up so early to fetch me to his house..
After reached his house, we do our things and at the end, I end up to sleep...haha. So piggy...
That day i feel we have a normal day and the most relax day after all..
we went to night market with his mother and after that, we went to visit little baby..Oops, forget to type baby name here..he is 杨翰玄.
Saturday night is a relaxing night for my dear and i.

Sunday morning..
8am wake up again..
what we are going to do next is to have breakfast..
I promised my dear after CNY I will have my breakfast everyday to be as a new habit...
I hope I can do that..
then, I stay at his house to do my project documentation oh...
That time I am so miss him but I also do not hope to disturb him while he is meeting his aunty for a discussion.
After that, finally he called me and ask about my condition..hmm...i feel happy for sure..
I hope he can appear in front of me that time..
Waiting bf at home quite missing him but is very 幸福.
haha..
so stupid oh~


anyway, this weekend quite tired but I feel very nice when be with my dear..
Dear, do you feel tired?
I know you are..even just now i did tickle your ears and kiss you but you do not know it..
Hope my dear sleep tight now oh..
Good night and thanks for giving me a sweet weekend..
I will listen your advice..muacks..
I love you..

Aiks

March 2 2010
Today my bachelor result released oh..
Even before the result released, i already know the answer but i really hope i can pass it. C- and C just 3 marks in difference...
This result makes my feeling getting bad and bad..
I really hope I can pass this paper in advanced diploma side so that I wont take the paper twice anymore..
I tried to cope this feeling and now i just hope i can get a rest.
Please do not force me to do anything I do not willing to do..
This only makes the situation worst....

Right now, I should focus on my studies and make sure everything goes fine as what I expected.
Good Luck for myself.

Last weekend really had a nice holiday with my dear.
Hope he is happy too..
but I think I will less go his place since I made him can't sleep well at night.
anyway, thanks dear for bringing me go out...

First Day of CNY 2010

Today is the first day of Chinese New Year.
I woke up at 730am and watch television program for 1 hour plus only prepare to wear new shirt.
Went to Grandpa house and wait for the uncles coming to have the reunion lunch Round 2. After that, they gossip about NUMBERS..and finally their wishes come true and all of them are lucky enough.
Mother keeps on asking me did my dear wishes me Happy Valentine's Day or called me by phone? Sister's bf called her, dad and mother and even aunties and uncles are celebrating the Valentine's Day at grandpa house as well. I am the only one hoping for it and holding my cellphone for whole day.

A little tears drops on my first Chinese New Year night..
Will this be the lucky tears? I hope it is..

Once again, Happy Chinese New Year and Happy Valentine's Day..

Confession of the Bad feeling

Recently after Christmas, I realized the caring lesser and lesser..this makes me uncomfortable..
I do not like this feel at all.
Every time my phone ring, i really hope is from my dear, but the result always disappointed me.
Sometimes his talking do "kek" me and even makes me angry and cry alone.
but,he thought i am kidding and just laugh.
I just do not know what he wants..this is a sad news.

yesterday, my mother keep on asking me why my dear never bother about me and seldom find me..
I really do not know how to answer and I also do not know how to ask my dear as well. I just can keep quiet and try not to think of it.
Valentine's Day should be the happy day but seems like our 1st time celebrate Valentine's is not going to make it as I wished.
I thought this CNY can be with him more..but, not as I wished.

i do tried my best to control my temper by stop talking with him and alone walk out and buy ice cream for myself to cool down or bite myself. but, no one knows.

i really do not know how to burst out my sad feeling anymore..I really no idea besides blogging..
i do not know how to tell a person and i just can cry alone..

Hope my friends can celebrate their valentine's day happily and Happy Chinese New Year.

my feeling~

今天宝贝告诉我他的婆婆去世了。。
我听了后，我一整天都很不开心。虽然和他的婆婆只是见过几次面，但是，我也对婆婆有深刻的印象。毕竟是我第一次见对方的婆婆们。。
看到婆婆的时候，她是坐着轮椅的。。听宝贝说婆婆很久前行动有点不方便了。。
婆婆的记忆不是很好但是，他还记得我是谁。。
今天忽然间收到这样的消息真的很意外。。

从我回来之后的这几天，我都比较忙。。
忙得却不是功课，而是帮妈妈办年货，整理东西等等。。
忙到我没有时间做功课。。虽然很担心，但是，我更加担心家人的健康。。
他们两的都那么老了，却还有他们忙一整天，心- 总是过意不去。。

宝贝，你一定要好好休息哦。。明天他们还很需要你的帮忙呢。。
我知道你很不开心，就算你告诉我你会照顾你自己我也是一样会担心你。。
但是，生，老，病，死 是无法避免的。。
你的爸爸一定会好好照顾婆婆的哦。。
他们在上也会保佑你们。。
所以，你就不别那么不开心了。。
别忘记~
我， 你的女朋友。。。
会在你旁边爱护你，照顾你，疼爱和自持你。。。
我爱你。。

今年的新年和情人节都不能和你一起过。。
但是，我觉得，和你在一起的日子就是我的情人节。。
那么，我就会有很多天的情人节咯。。我很贪心对吗 ？ 哈哈~
我相信你也不会忘记情人节当天是我们在一起的第八个月哦。。
礼物就迟点补回给你吧~

宝贝，早点睡吧~晚安哦！
想念你~~

9th February 2010

Today I get a bad news from my dear.
my dear's grandma passed away after coma for a while.
I'm not sleep well last night and keep on worried all night long.
Dear, don't be sad anymore. I do not know how to persuade you because I know you're very sad and you know how to control your emotion as well.
I just hope you can accompany grandma for her last journey ya~
Remember to take care your mother as well.
I'll be there for you, my dear.

The contest is over~

Just get the result from the contest.
We managed to enter top 50, top 20 but not the top 3.
What a sad news..
but it's alright. It just a game and the sweet moments is always keep in my heart.
Valentine's day is around the corner. I hope I can celebrate earlier with him but I haven't plan it. My dear sounds so boring recently. I do not know how to persuade him and I will follow to be sad as well. I am so miss him and I don't dare to tell him and just try to keep in for myself. That feeling really very hard to pass over but i need to do so.

I'm really hope i can have more time to be with him this time. But i am worried I will give him troubles..what should I do?

Vote me please~

I joined a contest at worldcard malaysia with the title sweet moment contest. We snap our couple photo and we get into the finalist. I really hope we can enter the top 20 list and have a little chances to win that prize. The link is below:

http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=4700343&id=132849171520

really hope have people to support me oh..
first day vote, the vote of LIKE for that photo is 30 persons..
i really hope tomorrow the vote will increase...really hope that..
crossing finger right now....

my dear, congratulation ya..your photo enter finalist d oh~
haha..i thought those wedding photo will enter the contest the most but seems like not..most of the photos was couples...
I hope to get the grand prize and go trip with my dear...
Dear, wish you good luck oh~
my lucky stars~~
muacks...

29 january 2010

so fast the january ends. haha.
yesterday i slept at 3am due to doing project and talk with house mates and online plan to give suprise to KK as yesterday is his birthday and today he just finished his exam.
This morning 10am wake up and rush to college to wait him finish his exam. This suprise was really big cuz we have 10 person plus a lecturer ( Mr Wong) haha. His bestfriend. lolx.

now i got no mood to do my project and my eyes wants to close already. 4.30pm i will depart to sister's office and wait her finish her work and i follow her back seremban.

So tired of doing project. My hair have dandruff once i not enough sleep. aww..i cannot tahan d..really so tired..T.T

It's Saturday

2 more days is my final exam last paper. I hope I can pass this paper as this paper have many things to memorize and the questions quite tricky as well.
Today i studied 6 chapters of 11 chapters..very tired and my eyes every strain right now.. really hope can have a nice rest for today but i am worried tomorrow i do not have enough time to use. so confusing and i do not know to decide it. so bad.

just called my dear and knew he is happy today and i feel happy too. I'm so miss him but I can't do anything. so bad. I'm so so so so miss him..really hope he will stay beside me..but i knew this is impossible..
sigh.

So tired today..Read the notes whole day. Read few times over and over again and try to understand. end up takes a lot of time on it. Today the internet connection very troublesome and somehow very hard to connect msn and facebook. This makes me getting boring but i can't do anything..just wait the line stable while studying..

Hope tomorrow my dear happy and enjoy his weekend oh..
wish to stay beside him...
Missing you, my dear !

考试期间

现在是考试期间。。
其实我都没有什么心情念书。。
头每次都很痛。。气死了！
今天早上收到老公的信息，他说老板还没有了解system 的 function。。所以，老板没有责怪他咯。。
做工就是这样哦。。
希望老公快快做完他的project哦。。
老公，做每件事尽力了，就行了哦！
我会在你后面为你加油的。。

虽然我会担心你，但是我也更希望你会开心哦！
我们一起加油吧！

压力

昨晚睡觉，朋友打电话给我。。
我在睡眠中朦朦胧胧的醒了，匆匆忙忙的看是不是闹钟，原来不是，还以为迟到去考场。。再看看时间，原来不是。。
我快疯了。。
考完后都好想接到你的电话，听听你的问候，你的关心。。但是，每次就是等到晚上十点多才收到你的信息。。
我懂，你的工作很忙。。没有时间理睬我。。
但是，你有发觉我们一个星期多没有上网好好谈。。关心对方吗？
我每天上网不是等别人和我谈天，而是等你上网。。
你知道我看到你的回复，我都会立刻回复你吗？
以前的你，到家就会告诉我，和谁出去都会告诉我。。
现在呢？要出去前才告诉我，要不然就是出去后才说。。
别人问我你的状况如何了。。我连那么简单的问题都不会回答他们。。
请你给我一点点时间让我们谈谈好吗？
我不是一直投诉。。而是，我真的很想让你知道我是怎样想。。
也许你会想到我很厉害投诉，很烦。。
但是，就是你的“怕我担心你”， 你就停止告诉我任何事情。。
如果我不担心你，我就觉得我不是一个好女友。。
你什么都不告诉我，让我感觉到我好没有用。。
告诉你千万次的 “想念你”，“我爱你”， 都很想得到你的关心。。
别人的关心，都比不上你的来得更重要。。

就算你看了觉得很生气，我很无聊，很多废话。。
但是，这个是我的心声。。
写部落格都会流泪。。关心我可以吗？可以吗？可以吗~ 可以可以可以......

要是你还是生气，对不起！

头痛

一月十五日 今天是第一天考试

早上的纸还好。。下午的，连问题都不懂要什么了。。还说要答案。。要命！
看到下午的纸，头痛及了。。那栋课室很难透风所以很难呼吸。。考完后，我还要控制情绪以免爆发会吓坏别人。。
忍着就回家看戏。。越看越头痛，晚上吃了晚餐就吃药。。

今天早上起床头没有那么痛了。。可是，还是有点晕晕的。。
很讨厌。。。。。

Alvin and the Chipmunks 2 Movie Day

12 January 2010, Tuesday

Today we bought 830pm for the movie. My Dear had a laptop that given by his company yesterday. This seems like a good news or bad news ?
I felt guilty today in overall. My dear looks very tired and I just intended to watch my movie and the decision is made on Sunday night.

This movie is a nice movie but my guilty makes me feel upset when watch the movie. Sigh..

Sweet moments with my dear even just a few hours for us to stick around today...

肚子痛

啊~~~~~~~~~
很痛啊。。
十一点半。。忽然间肚子痛。。
发生什么事啊。。。
最近食量有点大了。。
应该是在Kl没有得好吃。。所以这样。。
我要快快睡觉了。。
晚安！
肚子痛，我讨厌你。。
快快走开。。

Happy New Year 2010 !!

今天是新的一年的第四天。。。
我希望我的宝贝事业成功，身体健康。。还有天天开心。。
虽然新年的第一天没有看到宝贝。。但是，我依然很想念他。。
新年的第二天。。我的宝贝来找我。。
载我出去逛街。。只要和他在一起我就很开心了。。
今天我和他就一起逛街和买了衣服。。到了晚上，我们十点就到床上躺着。。
谈心事。。
真的很开心。。因为我们谈了很多。。也是我觉得听到他说话最多的一天。。哈哈
好希望他会继续这样。。
最后一个月了。。
希望我真的可以发奋图强吧！