NooB

Sigh..
The more I study, the more I feel I got nothing.
At Diploma, I can understand everything easily but why comes to degree just like a shit even I put a lot of efforts at there.When I flashback my advanced diploma life, it's like nothing..nothing at all..
I got no knowledge about everything..
the motivation is lost after diploma...
Why?
I feel stress and sad but I can't spread it out like diploma..
I do not know how to spread it out and I lost myself..
I really lost myself..
Where is the happy julie?
where is the crazy julie where at can study at morning and crazy with friends at night?
The motivation is really lost..

I just don't know why..

I already tried my best but I can't get the result I want..
I tried to understand but end up with nothing..
why?

I just feel like want to bang myself on the wall and dead..
I'm lost !!

T.T