Hard to Breath

Today when I woke up, the first thing i do was turn on my computer and check about the bill for resit.
The bill is out but the only thing was need to pay at bursary.
After done that, I've made amendment for the documentation and pass to my friend so that he can help me to submit to lecturer.
I feel so hard to breath and both of my legs is pain, stomachache and head pain. Sigh..
Maybe I'm lack of exercise or anything..i just feel i want to have a rest but what type of rest that suits me? i'm not sure.

I thought i will feel relief after submit the documentation but it doesn't. I have to start study my CCNA for resit.
I've done with 1 chapter but there are some chapters to go some more..
I hope I can done it.

Yesterday I'm not angry to my dear but I just do not know that is my wrong or his wrong. So, remain silent and let myself stop talking and think is the best way.

When I ask my dear about attending the talk from dad, he answered :he refused to go unless i go to his AIA talk.
What is the meaning behind was, I don't want so fast to leave him if i attend the talk with parents..but he do not think of this way.
After heard he said about the comparing AIA talk and my dad's GLOPEC oil talk..
I felt he is still mind in I refused to go his AIA talk last time.
That time I really do not have transport to go..sigh..

Maybe I should rush to there on that time no matter using what transport..
I'm so wrong.

I'm always so failure..I tried to do my best but it seems just getting worse and go to the worst.

I'm so bad~ T.T

I hate myself a lot..
I'm not deserved to be treated so good...
Really very hate myself.
T.T