Friday, July 31, 2015

结婚不知不觉快要一年了

结婚快要一年了,回看部落格,原来我已经离开那么久了。
我和我的他都在努力存钱,但是我们的户口怎样存都好像没存到钱,那个户口好像是开个方便而已。

他的事业渐渐好起来。。
我却一样的默默的在后面拼命存钱。
“担心” 这两个字永远都跟着我。
我到底担心些什么呢?
第一,发生意外时,有足够的钱来应付吗?十千都没有。。
第二,如果有宝宝,到底能够承担得起吗?
第三,我爸妈毕竟都老了,怎样都需要一笔钱以防万一。
第四,人人都催我要生宝宝了,我的健康是否能够承担得起?
第五,我知道我说话的语气有点重,但是他何曾一样,当讨论到这个话题,他总是说是我开始的,这个问题也开始觉得很困扰,甚至不想生小孩。

我不想孩子会污染到这样的说话方式,不想在没有经济能力下身长,没有人可以帮忙照顾小孩,我要照顾但是一人的经济能力能够负担得起吗?

我越想越深入。。
但是他不懂。。
讨论是需要的,但是他的脾气和我的脆弱。。唉。。。

Sunday, March 10, 2013

三年了 ! 计划未来 !

不知不觉我们在一起三年了。。 大家都老了, 还有不满的地方,也有个自的错误,大家还在努力更改着。。 看回去,我们还蛮可爱的一对情侣。 现在我们都在努力赚钱,为了结婚,为了更好的未来, 脾气和压力都有,就是不懂如何解决。。 现在如果要结婚都要50千才行。。我们到底该怎样突破这个难关呢? 房间 ; 厨 ; 嫁妆;喜酒 ; 旅行 ; 戒指 ; 礼品 ;等等。。 在考虑中。。。。

Monday, September 26, 2011

Happy Weekend !

24 September

I'm supposingly go Ipoh with parents to attend aunty's dancing party but ended up to attend Dell Charity Run 2011.
I have a little bit of regret but, after the sand art, I think I did a correct choice. I managed to play sand art that I loved the most when I was young.
After that, I went back to his house to have a bath and nap before rush back BM for his friend's Wedding Dinner.

The food is nice and we enjoyed a lot. After that, my dear and I went back my home and rest.

25 September

Today we have a big mission here, the mission is to help the bride to make over bridegroom and their brothers..overall, okay~

We busy until 2pm and at the end, nap at my house before rush back to house warming at Jelutong, Summer Place, Swee Khay's house.

Her house is not too big, and not too small, suitable for couple and 2 child i think.
Feel comfortable and likey her house, not the design but the feel.

The swimming pool is nice and the facilities not bad, the balcony is half facing city and half facing the sea.

That is my dream house whereby I can view the sea whenever I want.
I hope this can be my dream house in future.

I have a great weekend and yet, I still feel I less talk with him these days.
Wish to improve this..

Cheers..

Monday, May 2, 2011

HK Memorable Trip

21/4/2011 - 26/4/2011

Day 1 :
depart from Pg at 2.50pm, reach HK at 7.00pm.
feel excited when arrival. change mood to holiday + shopping mood
when walk out of the airport, feel the weather of HK is cold
like everywhere having aircon
get 八达通 & take bus A21 (double decker) to Wong Kok
then check in Artland Guest House.
before check in, bought Eye More at a shop, $HKD46. so expensive..
the lift of the hotel is damn small, jz can fit in 4 ppl
when enter to the room, first question to the staff: is this double bed? Yes, it is. LOL!!!
the bed is so small, just little bit bigger than our single bed.
after put all the thing, went to meet chailing n gang at kowloon hostel
bought disneyland ticket, ngong ping+大屿山 ticket & 蜡像馆+太平山顶 ticket at kowloon hostel, got better rate
dinner -> 茶餐室 nearby 吃猪扒意面(汤的),猪肠粉(不是很好吃)
found tat HK dint have chili source as PG, they only have chili oil
Walk Around @ wong kok
found 许留山 dessert, bought mango blended, very delicious, the mango slices very fresh n sweet
went 2 baleno shop, its nearly the closing time, but still, i bought a shirt at there, hongkee style 1. haha..
back hotel n take bath
luckily got heather in the hotel
water stuck in the bathroom. damn... like flood in the room

Day 2 :
Wake up at 7+am
take breakfast at 茶餐室 -> 叉烧通粉+肠仔煎蛋(PG叉烧better), 蛋塔也是普通罢了
heading to Disneyland after eat
disneyland train is amazing, like a train that bring us to virtual world, having a lot cartoon characters in the train, and the windows of the train is in Mickey's shape
first characters that met after enter are Mickey n Minnie. Lots of ppl Q for taking photo. We skip these as too long Q. Chailing afterwards said took them 1hr30min for that Q. Luckily we skipped..
because no water n food allowed to bring in, we had 2 buy 1 bottle of water. the good thing is, there is a lot of water filter available all over the disneyland, we can refill as much as we need.
first characters we took pic were goofy and pluto. pluto is so cute, hug at me when take pic. make me surprise at tat time.
next, take pic wif goofy and his son.
then go to blaszer gaming to shoot some target.
sleeping beauty and cinderella r very pretty in real person. but the make up very thick when look in near.
the golden mickey, an awards' show. very nice show, which lots of characters and their appearance very attractive. most memorable is beauty n the beast, make me wanna to watch the cartoon again.
lunch in disneyland never cheap. $HKD65 for just 叉烧饭. not delicious at all :(
after tat, went to small world. out of my imagination, there r just having some patung about the tradition of most countries in the world.
two funny characters i most like during tis visit - woody n soldier (Toy Story)
they act as i command. hahha....
At the deepside of the disneyland, there r few disney characters tat let us take pics individually - Mickey, Minnie, Pooh, Donald, Daisy
however, each might took long Q for tat
so, we choose Daisy which is less ppl on the Q
n Daisy having a sweet post when take pic wif dear
after Daisy, its about 3+pm, time for 游行
we sit at 1st place near the door.
few 花车 with disney characters n some dancers
just after finish the 游行, we run to take pics wif Mickey (the main character i n disney, i persume)
the character of antz seems not attactive to others, no ppl take pic with them while we on the way to watch lion king
so, we jz take a pic wif them tat time
because late a bit, the lion king's show had begin, so, we just go to Mickey's Philhar Magic
its nice show, 3D with some special effect like water spray n perfume while the show carry on
the latest character -> rapenzel.. very pretty n sweet girl, just like the one in the cartoon. too long Q, skip again.
the lion king show, just like summary of the ordinary cartoon, nice dancers n presentation.
coming a unexpected rain, so we bought mickey's auto-umbrella at the gift shop
after tat, sit a boat to round the adventurer river
having some wild creatures there, but all fake 1
its about 7pm+, feel a bit hungry, n we share a sandwich, it's better than 叉烧饭 tat we took previously
tinkle bell light is not amazing as i imagine
just some lights on n off on the disney castle
finally, 8pm, the disney fireworks.. very nice, brighten the night at there
but camera out of battery, so, no pic take for memories
show end, we went to 庙街@油麻地 eat 兴记煲仔饭. order wrong set, fish set. full of bone. feel not nice at all.
next station -> 女人街+波鞋街
a bit late when we reach there, some shops are closing
end up empty hand back to hotel
tired day...

Day 3:
wake up at 7+am again
went to 义顺牛奶公司 eat breakfast
i ordered 驰名双皮嫰奶+猪扒包
wow...驰名双皮嫰奶 really nice... like eat taufu fa, but better than tat
full with fresh milk, feel very delicious, wanna eat again if i can found in pg
then, we went to 尖沙咀,we walk to Arena of Star and c those 手印 of the artist
take some pics with the decorations there
the weather there is very cold, wind very strong because it just beside the sea
n tat time having 毛毛雨
luckily got mickey umbrella.. lol
after tat, follow by chailing schedule, its time for shopping
i suggested tat going ISquare instead of Harbour City, since Harbour City is farer n time is limited because we need to go to Arena of Star n so on.
ISquare is a mall tat having expensive thing like Pavillion@KL
not suite us. walk a round n come out walk at road side, eat McD for lunch.
went to nearby Giodarno, bought jacket, because the weather is damn cold n i dint bring my jacket along with me
my 1st purple color, suddenly feel purple is pretty color
next we go to 蜡像馆
need to take cable car to there. it build on a mountain
luckily we bought ticket previously, else, need take long time for Q again
蜡像馆 having plenty artist inside
some r really like real person at there, but some r not
then we move up to 太平山顶 which is on top of 蜡像馆. it's high mountain, can look around of HK. I saw AIA building at there. Haha...
the weather at there is freezing
can stand more than 10min at there
strong wind and cold than genting
we went to eat burger king after tat
after went down of the mountain, we go to arena of star again
there is having some music + some lights on building
its fantastic, n its foc.
their gov really did a great job to attract tourist on tat
when going back, we go to 女人街+波鞋街 again..
seek for shoe, cos everybody say its cheap here.
finally, dear n me bought a pair of shoe each
so happy.. get a sport shoe after long time of dreaming it
then we eat 臭豆腐 before back to hotel
its really smelly
but delicious when eating on it

Day 4 :
breakfast -> wantan mee
the portion is a like of medium size in pg
only having soup wantan mee
the mee is so so only, wantan also so so only
just the wantan is full of prawn
today is going Macau, wif chailing gang
i just reminded i dint bring passport along
shit!!! i run back to hotel while dear wait me at MTR station
luckily passport still on the table. get a shock..
we went to 尖沙咀 station, walk bypass harbour city
wow.. harbour city is the shopping mall tat we looking for, instead of ISquare
cos of time issue, we just proceed to jetty
take the jet to macau
the jet is smooth, took 1hr to macau
then sit the bus to venetian hotel
this hotel is at Cotai, having casino in the hotel
the decoration is damn grand n class
its bout lunch time, we take taxi to town n eat the famous 猪扒包 & 波罗包
猪扒包 is better n delicious. the bread of 猪扒包 really different from wat
we eat before. feel a bit crispy on the bread.
along the way, i bought 葡塔, got several flavour - coffee, coconut, chocolate, etc
then eat durian ice cream, yummy yummy
first saw 钜记 at the street.
its crazy, full of ppl inside, dono why so much ppl fighting for the food there
i refill my bottle, n bought some 花生糖. dear bought 杏仁纽结糖 n others.
杏仁纽结糖 really damn delicious, not as hard as Australia brand.
sweet n crispy candy. loving it.. but i didnt bought :(
after tis, back to hotel n free n easy, seperate wif chailing gang.
we walk walk in the hotel
the drawing deco is very nice
seems like real 风景. n the boatman/boatwomen sing very well when 划船.
next is going to see the WALL.
dono wat is tat wall so special, full of ppl there.
just too some pics.
during the way we going to wall, the street having 4 or 5 shops of 钜记
is it insane? every 钜记 also full of ppl.
wat the hell? the boss really earn a lot..
dinner time at 义顺澳门
very bad.. all we wanna eat already finish
i just eat 2 fried eggs n share 饨蛋 wif dear
饨蛋 is not nice as 驰名双皮嫰奶
cincai eat n back to HK
the jet tat return - first ferry, is very 'chek'
chailing vomit few times
luckily dear more strong, no vomit, but headache
tat night, we went to eat porridge
hmm.. not bad.. the porridge very smooth (滑).. ho jiak..

Day 5 :
after few days early wake up, today is Shopping Day
we plan to late wake a bit.
sleep til 9+
then go 庙街@油麻地 eat wantan mee
but cant found the shop named in book, so, cincai eat dimsum
wow.. the 烧卖 really ho jiak
the skin is very soft
the sifu bake it on request 1
新鲜滚热辣... very hot, fresh n very delicious
the 叉烧包 also very nice
the source inside very creamy..
happy to have nice breakfast like tis...
today, we tried to explore other place, so we went to 铜锣湾
first plaza we go is Time Square
nth much at there
just have window shopping n take some pics wif lomo deco
after tat, we went to Sogo
found 暖手包 (Hello Kitty), cost $HKD48, too expensive, n left only 1 display item
just forget it..
then we just walk around the street
dear bought a purple slimming pants at giodarno
it just fit her, cos she hardly found fit pants
then went to find our lunch at world trade center..
n we found 满记
oh my.. tis is just desert shop
n we eat as our lunch
we order durian cake, mango desert, sesame tang yuan, coconut milk
they r very delicious
if i can, i hope can open a shop in pg, share tis ho jiak wif penang kia
accidentally saw Pucca deco in WTC
took some cute pics wif them.. hehhe...
a bit tired, to make tis day relax, we went back hotel take a break
at night time, we visit 栏桂坊
saw Hard Rock Cafe t there
then some pub, disco, some sort of those shops
but its at 8+pm, not much ppl hanging there
n wif no luck, no met any artist tat time
nth much attract food there, so, we went to eat McD again
order 2 sets tat not having in Msia
Prawn n beef set
beef set is more delicious compare wif prawn set
another time to 女人街+波鞋街
just to walk walk n spend time, i bought a long sleeves shirt at bosini
cos not enough shirt to wear :P

Day 6 :
final day.. pack our things
morning go to 黄大仙庙 pai pai
then eat breakfast at the mall beside
the food is nice n cheap, only cost $HKD46
feel its the worth breakfast tat we took over these few days
dear having porridge + 糯米鸡 + teh
i having chicken chop, egg n bread + teh
too much for us, cant finish 糯米鸡 at the end
back to hotel, check out, get back the deposit n heading to airport
switch few train n prepare to say bye bye to HK
2 bags go, 6 bags back. lol..
my lips dry til break :(
bought the lipstick at airport
feel better after use it, but lips like in pink color after use
left a bit time for us to go Ngong Ping 大屿山
it located nearby to airport
it is really lucky we bought the ticket, else, the Q is long like a road from head to tail
we take the cable car to the top, can see HK airport on the way going up
weather is good today, no rain, n not very cold.
take pizza as lunch, although we found 满记 at there, but not thinking to having it tat time.
feel luckily, we found 暖手包 at there, cost $HKD25 each, buy 3 free 1 (1 is broken when i use it)
climb to the top of the mountain, to see the big buddha at there
the temple there design to have 360 degree turning, so tat we can see all around HK
its nice scene at there
its last visit place, back to airport
since having some HKD, then shopping at there
dear bought perfume, i bought clinique facial foam
then we measure our luggage weight n check in the luggage
the weight is just fit in, cant have much more extra
we eat fried goose at there
its delicious, the skin, really fried very well, crispy
n the fat is just ngam ngam
cant feel any 腥味 from the goose
we went to custom after dinner
its very unfortunate incident happen
dear being caught, because having pepper spray tat i give her few years ago
its illegal in HK
the police took it away, take pic n record down all the detail regarding to dear
but still ok, it just a warning, they release us
the time is quite rush, because the flight reschedule to 10min in advance
we rush like crazy to the check in station, its very far
need to took a train from the custom to the station
luckily, we still able to reach on time
n able to shop for chocolate
i spend all the money left on chocolate, $HKD440+286
finish almost all the HKD there
with safe journey, back to Penang... lovely home..

Tuesday, March 29, 2011

PLAN

April is coming soon..

Seems like we not yet plan our Hong Kong Trip Schedule.
That is really one of my wishes for this year and need to fulfill it..
Count Down-ing...

Let me calculate out what are the stuff that we have spent before go for the trip..

Passport - rm100 ( 1 person)
Flight - rm550 ( 2 person)
Currency Exchange - rm1000 from my side , rm1500 from his side ( first exchange)
Hotel - total rm1000

Disneyland - estimated rm 190 - rm220 per ticket
Cable Car and Stuff - Estimated expenses RM500
Food - RM400 (enough ?)

Not sure..
I will exchange extra rm800 once I get my salary again and make sure he wants to go before I change the currency.

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Plan 2 - Hard Rock Hotel

Not sure with the plan yet..need to reschedule and adjust my $$ before confirm...

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Plan 3 - My Birthday

TAO or Seoul Garden or House of Steamboat, nice ?
If it's durian season, i wish i can go eat many many durian....

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Plan 4 - H.I.S Birthday

To be confirmed..... ( I wont tell it, after I tell, no more suprises)

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~~~~~~~ Future Plan ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Dear, i think we should plan on this if we wish to have our own family in future.
I know it sounds ridiculous and you sure will think to invest all the money in insurance for better future. but, everything is not under control and we still need to have own planning in case something happened.

Besides that, i feel not that happy when i try to voice out something i wish for and you just ask me to dream..
I feel sad and feels like no one will share my thought and the things i wished..
I said it and I will meant for it..

I do have a mindset to plan, but I am not sure you do have an idea in your mind for your future planning?

I don't hope to hear you said "Don't know.."
At least a plan is here, you can follow if you are lost, or either you can follow your plan in your mind if you don't want to let me know.

If you are really do think of our future, you can let yourself to set a target.

Marriage Life
(A) after 3 Years
(B) after 5 Years
(C) after 7 years

What types of Wedding ?
(A) Honeymoon Wedding
- Treat family members, either lunch or dinner ( estimated location, price and estimated amount of friends)
- Honeymoon - what location (oversea - budget)

(B) Traditional Wedding
- 2 side of wedding dinner + after half year, travel.


Types of life ?
(A) Both Working, Guy have to subsidize 75% to the own family and girl subsidize 50% to own family
Description:

Guys
40% for Saving in Bank (for future kids life)
25% for House Expenses ( Reason: Cooking, Wash, grocery)
10% for Own Parents

Girls
30% for saving in bank (for future kids life)
10% for House Expenses
10% for own parents

(B) Guy Working, Girl stay in house
- if you are rich enough, will consider this plan.


Temporary I just can think of this..
Just hope to listen your thought because, my friend, Li Ying do share this with her BF to get their aim together since secondary until now..
now, they are successful..I am really happy for them and I hope I am one of them too..

I do hope our relationship become healthy and get this aim together as well.
Let me know your thoughts when I am awake and have energy to listen...
I will listen....

really hope so....

Friday, February 4, 2011

sick sick during CNY

I am sick during CNY..no mood at all.

This year CNY is just look like last year....
no bf acc, no happy, no special thing happens...
the only thing happened is just SICK..

Fever 2 days, sneeze until nose pain, internal bleeding..cough until chest pain..
eat anything also no flavour at all..

maybe this year valentines will be same like last year as well...
NORMAL DAY ~~

sigh..quite disappointed and very tired...

What can I do ?

How to cheer up myself?

sob....

Friday, December 24, 2010

不是没有话题。。

其实我们的关系是很好,就是缺乏关心。。

就是因为工作,时间不宜, 所以我们很少说话。。
我很想对你说很多话,但是,我又怕你说我幼稚,所以就想了几遍才问,才说。。

我知道你很累因为你这几个月根本没有给自己休息。。
去了吉隆坡后,你就忙着篮球比赛, 然后,朋友的喜酒, 跑槟威大桥, 又吉隆坡, 又朋友的喜酒。。。
我看到你这样,你以为我很好受吗?
你的生活里面没有休息。。

你在吉隆坡 AIA Kick Off 时,想sms问候你,你却说“不知道要回复什么”。。
我真的感到很伤心。。
我以为我的关心让你觉得厌倦。。
我真的不懂要怎样才算好。。




** 我有我的不满却不能告诉你 **

我们不是没有话题。。而是,当我问的问题,你的答案却是“不知道”。

当我问你关于你的工作时,你却告诉我不要问你工作的事。。(你有说过)

当我不喜欢你和Celine 那么好时,我却不能告诉你,只好一个人安静的在上网,发泄自己的不满。。因为你说过(你在外面会遇到很多女生的客人)我知道你对他只是朋友,但是,女生总是会吃醋。。

我知道我并不是一个好女朋友,但是我真的很努力的去做好。。
我不希望离开你,我的希望是和你在一起。。
我只是很难说出口我的不满,因为我知道我会哭。。
我也从来没有对别人认真的说出我真正的感受。。
就算家人也从来没有说过。。

我很想了解你,但是我真的很不想那个答案是 - 不知道
你说的话,我都有记在脑里。。
我希望你能知道最近的我就是有意见。。。。

也许,我的表达能力不是很好。。
尤其是说话方式。。也有可能让你感觉到我不尊重你,对你马马虎虎, 对不起!
我就是不会在语言里表达我自己。。
你可以让我知道,我会去改散。。
但是,我就是那么容易流泪。。

这个是我第一次拍拖那么久的一次,我对这段感情很认真。。
我不会那么容易放弃,因为我知道了解一个人不是一两天的事, 而是相处方式里了解对方。。

我会慢慢踏入你的世界里了解你,但我也希望你能踏入我的世界了解我。。

我会永远爱你。。

Monday, December 13, 2010

我们...

感觉上...
沟通越来越难
话题越来越少
关系越来越差
人越来越累
怎么办?

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Lazy Sunday !

It's Sunday / 12 December 2010

It's quite a long time I do not update my blog.
Well, Busy life..
Weekdays is tired and weekend as well..

Again...raining day!
Hugging Ginger and walk around in the house.
Lazy to go out even is shopping mall...
My back is pain..too tired i think.

He, no news from Him since Morning..
=(
17 December is my Team annual dinner.
not sure what I should wear as the theme is just allowed us to wear black, white, red or green. (just like the christmas tree).

I am lazy to drive to there, can someone fetch me to there ?
Lack of money all the time.


Seems like Money does causing the problems..
I hate it.

Saturday, September 18, 2010

Quiet Saturday!!

18 September 2010

My parents thought today he will come to find me and prepare a lot of food even i told them he will not come. but they insist to do so many food..

Parents keep on asking why he is not coming and keep on asking about his things..
I just said don't know.
Yeah! this is the answer i can answer for now.

I am very tired due to not sleep well for 2 days and try to have some rest on the evening, but, i really can't sleep and just drop a few tears only able to sleep..

He just look like do not care me at all..
a whole day just send a "I MISS YOU" message only..
No calls, no message anymore..

I feel very depress...
very very sad but can't tell anyone bout this...
just try my best to be strong but still will cry alone at night before sleep..
i am just so fail...

failure me~