I ♥ Weekend !

♥ 26 - 28 March 2010 ♥

题目：我最爱周末又来临了。。
原因：可以陪我的老公
重要性（max = 5）：♥♥♥♥♥

星期五的早上，一起床就觉得很开心
想到今晚我最爱的老公来载我出去就很开心。。
今天就和妈妈一起做了些糕点打算做给爷爷吃，和给老公吃。。
怎么知道，老公到我家后，我们就出门了。。
他连试吃也没有。。
我们就这样去了 “火锅之家” 吃晚餐了。。
看他肚子饿，我也有点心疼。。就快快把虾破壳就煮。。
希望他喜欢。。
我在那边就像阿四~
还好我终算吃到一点东西。。
回到家后，都很迟了。。
我们洗澡后，就在房间休息了。。

星期六早上， 今天我有interview，原本很想去讨 .NET programmer 的工，但是，听到老公说他们比较喜欢有经验的，就放弃了。。到了那边，发现朋友们都讨同样的工，对自己没有信心，只好讨份另类的工。。
回来之后，真的有点后悔的，但是，事情都发生了。。也没什么好后悔。。只好靠命运。。
之后我们就去吃mcd 然后就去queensbay 走走咯。。
回到家，我们就把房间弄成小戏院，看‘大兵小将’。。
看完了，我们就睡觉了。。
快快乐乐的时间过得真快。。

那么快就到了星期日。。
今天我们就坐摩托到air itam 去清明。。
每条路都在堵车。。
还好老公聪明，选择摩托。。虽然晒了一点，危险了一点，但是，我还蛮享受的。。
回到家后，我们就快快把衣服换掉。。就继续我们的小戏院，看 “锦衣卫”。
好喜欢在看戏时甜蜜了起来的感觉。。很舒服。。
之后我们就去了penang times square和 gurney plaza 逛街。。
我们看了How To Train Your Dragon 后，就去吃晚餐。。
我好喜欢这样的周末。。

♥ 老公，你喜欢吗？ ♥

Pain~

Today is the second day of stomach pain..
this is because of the monthly blood donation that I need to go through..
Yesterday I even sweat on my bed and cover blanket during 3-4pm..
hmm...but after that, i feel much more better after mum apply some oil on my stomach..it keeps me warm and feel better a lot..
but i do hope my dear's hand can put on my stomach..his hand is very warm and I like it a lot..

This pain not only makes me suffer and yet, i'm dizzy. I can't even stand straight yesterday and I realized I do not enough blood..Can someone donate it for me ????? haha..

anyway, I really hope i can cope this pain as soon as possible and I hope I can finish the pain after 3days..argh..i'm very suffer everyday~

Hard to Breath

Today when I woke up, the first thing i do was turn on my computer and check about the bill for resit.
The bill is out but the only thing was need to pay at bursary.
After done that, I've made amendment for the documentation and pass to my friend so that he can help me to submit to lecturer.
I feel so hard to breath and both of my legs is pain, stomachache and head pain. Sigh..
Maybe I'm lack of exercise or anything..i just feel i want to have a rest but what type of rest that suits me? i'm not sure.

I thought i will feel relief after submit the documentation but it doesn't. I have to start study my CCNA for resit.
I've done with 1 chapter but there are some chapters to go some more..
I hope I can done it.

Yesterday I'm not angry to my dear but I just do not know that is my wrong or his wrong. So, remain silent and let myself stop talking and think is the best way.

When I ask my dear about attending the talk from dad, he answered :he refused to go unless i go to his AIA talk.
What is the meaning behind was, I don't want so fast to leave him if i attend the talk with parents..but he do not think of this way.
After heard he said about the comparing AIA talk and my dad's GLOPEC oil talk..
I felt he is still mind in I refused to go his AIA talk last time.
That time I really do not have transport to go..sigh..

Maybe I should rush to there on that time no matter using what transport..
I'm so wrong.

I'm always so failure..I tried to do my best but it seems just getting worse and go to the worst.

I'm so bad~ T.T

I hate myself a lot..
I'm not deserved to be treated so good...
Really very hate myself.
T.T

流泪

今天一早起床后，就和家人在一起吃早餐。。
爸爸就说了一个他从新闻听回来的真实的故事。。

这个故事发生在外国。
这个故事说有个爸爸他拥有一个3岁的孩子。
当时，爸爸因为赚到钱，就买了一辆昂贵漂亮的车。。
爸爸把车放好后，孩子就带着好奇心与开心去看看那辆车。。
爸爸当时没有注意小孩的一举一动。。爸爸也很疼爱刚买的车。。
由于孩子的好奇心很强，他走到车头，看到反射的他，就在车头画画。。
当爸爸看到后，很生气三岁小孩的行动就打他，然后就用wires把他的双手绑紧起来并且把他捆在停车位里。

过后，两个小时后，爸爸的气消了。。才想到孩子的存在。。
爸爸才记得孩子在停车位里。
当爸爸看到小孩时，小孩双手发黑。。
（由于wires阻碍人类血液循环，小孩的手就救不了，必须切掉）
过了这件事后，爸爸就把车子拿去修理，当他驾回来的车子就像新的一样。。
小孩就问爸爸 ：
小孩：爸爸， 你把车子修理像新的一样。。那么，你几时要把我的手还给我？
爸爸听了之后，很后悔之前的错误，但是，后悔了也救不回他心爱孩子的手。。
爸爸过意不去就自杀了。。

听了爸爸说了这个故事，我就控制不了自己的情绪，流泪了。。
流泪也因为可怜那个小孩。。也可怜我的过去也有一点像那个小孩。。
以前，由于爸爸早出晚归，所以看到爸爸回来的时候是特别开心的。。
就会跑去迎接爸爸，也很想得到爸爸的抱抱。。
可是，到最后，我都得不到。。
虽然那时不会伤心和失望，但是那个已经变成一种预料到的成绩。。
小时候的我还是一样，爸爸放工就迎接他。。

最动人的是，爸爸告诉我，他听到那个故事也很后悔当初为什么没有抱抱我们。。
所以他现在很努力为我们着想。。

我也明白为什么我那么喜欢抱抱了。。
虽然一个抱抱对普通人来说不是很重要。。
但是，对我来说：抱抱是一种对我的关怀与疼爱。。

宝贝，上次你问我为什么我喜欢抱抱，我却不会回答你。。
现在我懂了。。
我希望你随时能抱抱我一下。。
get my meaning?

=) Happy Weekend 7 March 2010

I just reached home no longer ago..
Where did I go?
I'm overnight at my dear's house.
This weekend I feel very happy. Why I said so ?
Friday night, my dear came to my house and we have our discussion over there.
Before the talk, i'm felt doubt with his planning about our future and I am worried him a lot..
But, after listen what he told me, it's quite touching and I only knew he did plan for our future and have a plan. This makes me feel relief a lot.

Saturday Morning..
Early in the morning, my dear came to find me. HAHA..I feel so happy..very very happy because he can wake up so early to fetch me to his house..
After reached his house, we do our things and at the end, I end up to sleep...haha. So piggy...
That day i feel we have a normal day and the most relax day after all..
we went to night market with his mother and after that, we went to visit little baby..Oops, forget to type baby name here..he is 杨翰玄.
Saturday night is a relaxing night for my dear and i.

Sunday morning..
8am wake up again..
what we are going to do next is to have breakfast..
I promised my dear after CNY I will have my breakfast everyday to be as a new habit...
I hope I can do that..
then, I stay at his house to do my project documentation oh...
That time I am so miss him but I also do not hope to disturb him while he is meeting his aunty for a discussion.
After that, finally he called me and ask about my condition..hmm...i feel happy for sure..
I hope he can appear in front of me that time..
Waiting bf at home quite missing him but is very 幸福.
haha..
so stupid oh~


anyway, this weekend quite tired but I feel very nice when be with my dear..
Dear, do you feel tired?
I know you are..even just now i did tickle your ears and kiss you but you do not know it..
Hope my dear sleep tight now oh..
Good night and thanks for giving me a sweet weekend..
I will listen your advice..muacks..
I love you..

Aiks

March 2 2010
Today my bachelor result released oh..
Even before the result released, i already know the answer but i really hope i can pass it. C- and C just 3 marks in difference...
This result makes my feeling getting bad and bad..
I really hope I can pass this paper in advanced diploma side so that I wont take the paper twice anymore..
I tried to cope this feeling and now i just hope i can get a rest.
Please do not force me to do anything I do not willing to do..
This only makes the situation worst....

Right now, I should focus on my studies and make sure everything goes fine as what I expected.
Good Luck for myself.

Last weekend really had a nice holiday with my dear.
Hope he is happy too..
but I think I will less go his place since I made him can't sleep well at night.
anyway, thanks dear for bringing me go out...