24 early in the morning, i wake up at 6am (slept 2 hours only) and quickly rush to airport. First is i worried i will lost in the journey and another is i can't wait to see my dear. On the journey, i keep on stay awake even i am very tired. My mind full of him. He is the one that makes me awake all the journey. So miss him..
When i reached airport, i went to old town to had my breakfast. Then, I ride the plane alone. When the plane is boarding ahead to the sky, I am very scare, but what can i do just grab my bag tight and close my eyes. I hate the moment where the plane fly to the sky and depart. But, i keep on telling myself that the distance between him and me is going closer and closer. This makes me feel happy and excited when i reached penang airport after the 50 minutes of ride.
When i see him, i only can release my stress and everything and i feel very tired. The first moment i want is just sleep. Sleep beside u is the greatest moment at all. I can see the natural of you and i can hugging you when sleep. i feel this is the warmest and sweetest moments of all. 24 night we went to the bbq. It's so happy to know all of your friends even now i already forget all of their name. 24 night, the kisses and the hug already become the greatest present for me in this christmas.
You are the first bf that being so long with me and the first guy who celebrate this festival with me. I really hope you are the first and the last one who celebrate with me in any occasion and holiday festival for all this life.
25 dec, the day where i back to hometown. This holiday is very special because i feel myself become a part of his family member. When i reached his house, his mother welcome me with a big smile. This is the happiest moment at all. When I back to my home, Dad and mum already prepared the parking place for him to park his car in. It's just like we both family are welcomed us. I am so happy that all this thing happened at me and i do not imagine it before. I feel very happy cuz our family allowed us to be together and treat us a part of the family. I love this feeling. It's so warm..
At night, i back to bf house and celebrate his birthday with his family. This is also the first time I celebrate my bf's birthday. This should be the happiest day and enjoy it but I think i ruin it and make it become the boring day for him. So sorry my dear...
27 dec, early in the morning, when i open my eyes, i realised i'm in my bf's room instead of small room. he carry me to his room to sleep on double bed. much more comfortable. when i see the clock, it's 7am...i know today is the day that i'm going to back kl and i feel i don't want to wake up. I started to cry..
at another time i opened my eyes, it's already 10am. it's time to wake up and I wake up in a bad mood. When i am having my bath, i hug him at behind and i started to cry again without his notice. the third time i cry is when i am going to leave his house. I really dont like to go kl everytime i back to penang. I don't know why but I just know my heart love penang so much. My breakfast is just same like the breakfast i took at kl airport...old town ! with same drinks and same food. aww.....but the feel is totally different. This is much more sad....
When i almost go into the custom part, i see behind and i really hope he will be there and wave for me...but everytime i look behind, i just feel i want to cry. After that, i see my dear's miss call. When i call back, i knew he is around me. He told me try to get out and take the charger from him. When i heard it, I feel very happy..Even is just to return a charger, i know he tried his best to back his house and take the charger for me..I tried to act tough in front of him and stop crying when i see him..i did it but i lost control when the flight is boarding. My eyes full of tears and i burst out quietly by looking the scenery..I just too love the life with my dear. It's really look like a sweet dream when i'm with him..but when i leave him, I am worried he will do not care me like previous..
I like my dear to control me in everything but he said he will give me freedom. I rather to exchange my freedom with your caring more. at least I know you will more care me and i will not easily become cool...
At kl, i am just like a cool person that have no feeling. When back to penang, i tried to become a normal person that needs caring more, sayang more and etc. I hope to have the caring more.........
T.T
so miss my dear..
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