我更了解你了

今天我们两个人都有点语气。。
但是，这样也好的。。
我们能了解对方都有点不开心。。
虽然有点伤心，但是，看整体来说是一件好事情。。
我们双方又对彼此踏进一步。。
但是，我也会控制我的语言的，，
对不起，老公。。
外面客厅有7 个男生正在玩游戏。。就像在cyber cafe 那么吵。。
我也不想说话有语气，但是我真的听不到你说话。。
我会好好检讨我自己的。。。

24 - 27 December 2009

24 early in the morning, i wake up at 6am (slept 2 hours only) and quickly rush to airport. First is i worried i will lost in the journey and another is i can't wait to see my dear. On the journey, i keep on stay awake even i am very tired. My mind full of him. He is the one that makes me awake all the journey. So miss him..
When i reached airport, i went to old town to had my breakfast. Then, I ride the plane alone. When the plane is boarding ahead to the sky, I am very scare, but what can i do just grab my bag tight and close my eyes. I hate the moment where the plane fly to the sky and depart. But, i keep on telling myself that the distance between him and me is going closer and closer. This makes me feel happy and excited when i reached penang airport after the 50 minutes of ride.
When i see him, i only can release my stress and everything and i feel very tired. The first moment i want is just sleep. Sleep beside u is the greatest moment at all. I can see the natural of you and i can hugging you when sleep. i feel this is the warmest and sweetest moments of all. 24 night we went to the bbq. It's so happy to know all of your friends even now i already forget all of their name. 24 night, the kisses and the hug already become the greatest present for me in this christmas.

You are the first bf that being so long with me and the first guy who celebrate this festival with me. I really hope you are the first and the last one who celebrate with me in any occasion and holiday festival for all this life.

25 dec, the day where i back to hometown. This holiday is very special because i feel myself become a part of his family member. When i reached his house, his mother welcome me with a big smile. This is the happiest moment at all. When I back to my home, Dad and mum already prepared the parking place for him to park his car in. It's just like we both family are welcomed us. I am so happy that all this thing happened at me and i do not imagine it before. I feel very happy cuz our family allowed us to be together and treat us a part of the family. I love this feeling. It's so warm..
At night, i back to bf house and celebrate his birthday with his family. This is also the first time I celebrate my bf's birthday. This should be the happiest day and enjoy it but I think i ruin it and make it become the boring day for him. So sorry my dear...

27 dec, early in the morning, when i open my eyes, i realised i'm in my bf's room instead of small room. he carry me to his room to sleep on double bed. much more comfortable. when i see the clock, it's 7am...i know today is the day that i'm going to back kl and i feel i don't want to wake up. I started to cry..
at another time i opened my eyes, it's already 10am. it's time to wake up and I wake up in a bad mood. When i am having my bath, i hug him at behind and i started to cry again without his notice. the third time i cry is when i am going to leave his house. I really dont like to go kl everytime i back to penang. I don't know why but I just know my heart love penang so much. My breakfast is just same like the breakfast i took at kl airport...old town ! with same drinks and same food. aww.....but the feel is totally different. This is much more sad....

When i almost go into the custom part, i see behind and i really hope he will be there and wave for me...but everytime i look behind, i just feel i want to cry. After that, i see my dear's miss call. When i call back, i knew he is around me. He told me try to get out and take the charger from him. When i heard it, I feel very happy..Even is just to return a charger, i know he tried his best to back his house and take the charger for me..I tried to act tough in front of him and stop crying when i see him..i did it but i lost control when the flight is boarding. My eyes full of tears and i burst out quietly by looking the scenery..I just too love the life with my dear. It's really look like a sweet dream when i'm with him..but when i leave him, I am worried he will do not care me like previous..

I like my dear to control me in everything but he said he will give me freedom. I rather to exchange my freedom with your caring more. at least I know you will more care me and i will not easily become cool...
At kl, i am just like a cool person that have no feeling. When back to penang, i tried to become a normal person that needs caring more, sayang more and etc. I hope to have the caring more.........

T.T
so miss my dear..

臭人

臭人。。臭人。。。臭人。。。。
还以为昨天我忽略了他，他会生气。。打算今天可以和他聊天。。
怎么知道他去上课了。。。。
他说830 就完毕。。还以为可以和他讲讲电话，哪里知道他去了朋友的家。。。
我又在家一个人一整天。。嘴巴除了吃，真的没什么用处了。。
我很想念他，但是怕干扰他，只好打算等他到家后，才打给他。。
等着等着。。
衣服都洗干净了。。
地上也扫了，抹了，才收到他的信息。。
原来他说他要玩一盘dota 才睡觉。。
期待了一整天就是等待他得空的时间，但是却失望了。。
我真的生气，但是又不忍心看他累了也不能做自己的东西。。
只好发信息给他劝他早点睡。。

今天一整天外面都很大风。。很冷。。
刚才出去吃晚餐时真的有点担心和怕自己会飞走。。
一个人，天气那么冷， 孤独在家，只好做家务。。
我也不喜欢不干净的地方。。

叹气。。。。

真的很希望他在我的身边。。。。。。。。。。

累

今天我的课从早上九点到下午七点。
很累。一大清早就起床，洗完脸后就忙着出去拿我的身份证，之后就去弄我的atm卡。
虽然这样一点点不会累，但是接下来的课都让我很累。
回来又要洗衣，冲凉等等。搞到来都九点了。 休息一下，就很累。。
看到宝贝在网上，就把自己的一点点力把眼睛开着，和宝贝谈天。。
我很累。。。
来那个已经不够睡觉，还要上课到七点。。
考试，功课。。快疯了。。
脾气都不是很好，但是也要试着掌握得很好。。所以，就洗厕所发泄情绪。。
哈哈！
好无聊的方式。。但是，这样也不错。。
一来，可以把厕所洗干净， 二来可以发泄。。不错！
哈哈。。。
好无聊的我。。。。。
天天都自爽。。。。

happy

Today I'm So miss my dear.
when i reach home, the first thing i do is open my msn to see whether he online or offline.
what i am happy the most is the call from my dear.
老公，
你的一句“我爱你”胜于过天。。
就算我有什么不开心的事，听到你说了以后，都觉得一切都不同了。。真的很开心哦。。

我爱你。。